Archive for January, 2016

“Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.”

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According to Pinterest, this is this most popular quote about failing. 

The statement is true, but looking at failure that way? It’s easier said than done.

Here’s a list of the things that I have failed at this week:

1. Scheduling Winston’s hair appointment

2. Grading the stack of papers on my desk

3. Updating my portfolio

4. Finally finishing my portrait magazine

5. Keeping the promise of brushing my hair every day

One of the hardest parts about being an adult is staying on top of everything. Working hours upon hours a week… While trying to make it perfect. While maintaining a social life. While keeping up with house work and personal hygiene. It’s daunting. It is absolutely impossible to do it all without failing somewhere- and I know I’m not alone in that. 

People hate the word failure. They hate the act of failing. We were never even allowed to use the word growing up, which is honorable. However, we HAVE to learn to be okay with failing sometimes. I can’t do it all. We can’t do it all. That’s NORMAL. 

I know that this isn’t ground-breaking information, but it always helps to hear… For me anyway…

So in case you are feeling like a failure- at home or at work or at being a good friend or spouse or at taking care of YOURSELF- know this: You are not alone. We all fail. We all get back up. We all get the opportunity to start again. 

 

Mardi Gras season is upon us, which means evening gowns, parties, and, of course, gorgeous photos! Here are a few of my faves:

Dress Number 1:

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Dress Number 2:

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Dress Number 3:

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Stop by again later this week! A ton more is in the works to be blogged SOON! 

Recently, I was looking back through my old blog. The one that people don’t even know still exists. The one that I would never, ever show people again. My “starter” blog from when I was just starting to pursue this whole photography thing….

As I scrolled through, laughing at my posts, gazing at the comments, and staring bug-eyed at the pictures that I thought were sooooo great at the time, I noticed something. Sure, it was a mess, but I loved it. My posts had an eagerness and genuine yearning to them that I think may sometimes be absent from the ones that are on my current blog.

This made me think about the photographer that I was then vs the photographer I am now.

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Sure, I’ve grown a lot. I definitely have more business savvy. I know how to track my expenses and revenue so that tax season isn’t so killer. I’ve gotten better at communicating with my clients. I’ve gotten better at not wanting to hurl before meetings because my nerves have gotten the best of me. I’ve gotten technically better. I’ve learned the rules and broken them as I see fit in my creative process. But- what am I missing?

I believe that the key that I’m missing in all of this is the PASSION that brought me into this career in the first place.

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Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my job. I love meeting new people. I love taking and editing photos. I love sharing my life with clients and readers.

In that aspect, nothing has changed. However, as I’ve grown as a photographer and as a business, I’ve lost a few things (if I’m being honest). I’ve slacked in a few areas. I blog the bear minimum. I update my portfolio less. My online presence isn’t as strong as it once was. And why? The simple answer- the busier I’ve gotten, the more I’ve had to pick and choose what I focus my time on. And that’s okay.

With that being said, I wanted to go back to basics. I want to go back to what started it all.

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I want to still have the clientele that I have now. I want to still have the business that I have now. I want to still have the experience that I have now. All of that, but with the passion that started it all. I believe that passion is a choice. I believe that if you focus on your to do list or on the tedious things that are done during the day or week or month, passion slips away. So, I’m choosing to make a conscious effort to focus less on those things and more on why I love what I do, while doing MORE of it.

Now, I am not yet in a position to take on more weekly sessions or attend more conferences (although I hope that is in the near future), but I do want to start with baby steps.

Step one: this blog.

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When I was little, I wanted to be a writer.

When I got older and became a photographer, I got the best of both worlds. I get to do something I’m much better at than writing (photograph) while also doing something that I think is fun too (blogging) while getting to make up my own grammar rules. ;)

My blog is a place for information and photographs, yes, but it was/ should also be a place for ME. A place for YOU. 

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A place for me to share my life with you- and not just the professional side. I miss showing you all the silly. sad. confusing. ecstatic. hectic. overwhelming. goofy. loving. sides of me that go in to making me the photographer that I am. The businesswoman that I am. The friend that I am.

I want you to hire me because you love my photographs, but I also want you to hire me because you know me and relate to me. I want you to be comfortable with me. I believe THAT is what makes the difference in a good photography experience and a GREAT one.

I want to get back to that.

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And it starts with this post. ;)